so...be careful what you wish for.
in the same ways of so many of my friends, i'm in this point in my life where i'm genuinely trying to figure out " what's next?" first off, i love my job here at camp lutherhaven. sometimes i wish it was full time and long term. but i also know that there's not much room for growth in this position-it's more like an internship.
as i explore the future God is laying lots on my heart, and to be quite honest, i don't think i always know how to deal with it. right now i've got three big things i'm considering and i can't even believe they are possibilities!
i've applied and interviewed with youth encounter. wow. can't believe i just typed that. it's something that has been ever present before me, and something i'm genuinely excited about the more i think about it, i just have no clue if it will actually happen or not. those of you unfortunate enough to hear me sing know why. but i'm passionate about traveling, ministry, and excited that there could be room for lots of musical growth. i'm still in the process with that. with the idea of youth encounter comes the idea of "well, what would i do for 3 months until it started up (if it happened?)"...never thought id say it, but perhaps camp? i can't deny that camp ministry is where my heart is and that it could be an incredible summer of growth and contributing to youth ministry in a different way considering the perspective i've gained through this position.
enter option 2: within the past year sometime my mom put a spanish couple and their family on a flight and got his contact information. somehow through it all, i'm emailing back and forth with his wife about an au par position in SPAIN! i would get to use my degree AND work with kids...unbelieveable. their friends have a 5yr old, a 3yr old, and another baby on the way. they like to go to their apartment on the beach in august and would want me to go along...that'd just be horrible, right? but just like the ye thing, i'm still in the communication stages
enter option 3: i've been invited to visit honduras. it's an organization called world gospel outreach http://www.wgoreach.org/ they equip people to be teachers, doctors, missionaries and so much more to the poor and desperate of tegucigalpa, honduras. there are half-way homes in which young people experience assisted living so that they can be prepared to work and support themselves, medical facilities from which everyone hears the gospel before leaving, and direct education classrooms. the list of possibilities with this organization is endless. they've invited me to come visit for a week-spending a couple days in each of the various areas. people who volunteer for a week for missions pay over a thousand dollars for a similiar week-i could go for under 300, including airfare. they know just a few things about me, but are already interested in how i would fit in with the community and want to see where they could see me working. i think they might be desperate, but what an incredible opportunity!
my mom told me in a very heartfelt way that she feels sorry for me because i have so much to choose from. my heart is really feeling pulled in that many different directions. i just want this to be about God and how He would use me for His ministry. sigh. there's something big out there waiting...
